A Student after Meditation Class #55, shared:

A Student after Meditation Class #55, shared: Aloha, my dear master Tammie (my soul Teacher 😊),

Head-ups: It might be a bit long, but I do hope anyone who suffers the same issues as me will benefit from it, and start practicing your teaching to transform life & have their heaven on earth. Love Youniverse - Love the truth ✨

I don't know why but my intuition just told me to write an English email to share my experience during the meditation retreat at your paradise land.

As I shared before, from start to finish till now, every moment has been a miracle & beyond my imagination since I received your acceptance email.

At first, I remember on the bus ride to your place, I slept for most of the trip, but there were two instances when I suddenly awoke. Each time, the view before me was a church with a huge cross passing by ⛪. At that moment, I felt certain that God was guiding me and that I was on the right path to discovering the truth.

THE JOURNEY BEGINS,

Never in my life have I had those kinds of experiences, I could see I grow up every day by observing myself and listening to your teaching. What amazed me is your teaching is so practical and scientific, you only tell us to stay conscious & mindfully observing our body, feelings, and thoughts every second. And understand that these observations, every moment are impermanent, they are not us, and they will come and go. You taught us how to be freed from greed, hatred, and delusion, not superstitious beliefs. It might seem easy, but it's not, cause we are so full of ourselves & egos, but you were always there to remind me whenever I was led by my ego.

You never told us to apotheosize you - your form here, or to call you by the name of whatever God that is, you just tell us to feel you from the formless, from the wisdom of our soul, and fix our soul towards GOD. These are different from what I experienced before when I came to other spiritual places, making me respect and trust your teachings even more.

THE TRANSFORMATION I RECEIVED DURING THE MEDITATION RETREAT 💗

My anxiety:

I must admit that since I was little, I had a lot of fear and anxiety (I rarely felt safe and secure with myself and the environment around me). I used to change Kindergarten school 3 times, just because I didn’t talk or react to anything the teachers said. It still affected me when I grew up that I had to attend many psychology courses like mindfulness, meditation, emotional intelligence, and EFT practice - but these only solved the tip of the iceberg, my anxiety still appeared when I went out of my comfort zone or connected with people.

And, the transformation surprisingly happened during the retreat, I did feel that you helped me to heal my anxiety on a subconscious level, I remember when you first told me to share about my experience, I was so scared, the energy in my throat was stuck, my mind was empty, I didn’t know where, when to start (it happened a lot in babylon if I talked without preparation in advance). Since it has begun, it must be finished, I tried to observe it from outside my body, I prayed to God, then my fears just disappeared, and I started speaking like I never spoke before :))). Even now, when I watch the livestream again, I can’t believe that was me talking and how I had transformed. Thank you my love. If I can overcome this hug anxiety - which I never expected, anyone can do it too.

There were many times during the retreat when my anxiety levels increased high both from what I sensed from others and inside me, I just wanted to run away and give up because the feeling was so intense. I didn't want to affect others as I had an old pattern that everything that happened was my fault, no matter what, this pattern made me suffer a lot. Those times, I just keep praying to God to save my soul & guide me way. Then, you always showed up in different ways to save me at the right time (like you would play music from your room, yelling, making us laugh or doing livestream or finding the root cause of the low energy level and fix it). You did everything you could out of love for our freedom.

I cried an ocean with gratitude, every time I was freed from fears, burdens, and anxieties. I did feel I was stronger, and my consciousness was firm thanks to you and all the challenges during the retreat. And now, even though there are still challenges that I need to face, what I have inside me now is the heart of courage, the key to set me free, and the heart full of love towards GOD to face whatever life throws at me.

Past trauma:

In my past life, when I didn’t know your teaching yet, because of my innocence, attachment to good deeds without proper wisdom & arrogant, I faced many challenges, such as being taken advantage of, even sexual harassed by a monk, being deceived..., I didn’t know how to protect myself at that time & there were times I became so negative & bad too. Time went by, I thought I had overcome those past traumas already, but not, I just suppressed them like using stones to cover grasses. I didn’t intend to bring those Babylon stuff to your land, but it's God's plan, things happened so I had to face those traumas to release it, it was coincident that you would speak out of nowhere what I felt, what had stuck in me for a long time, I released & cried a lot.

For the first time, I truly forgive myself for my mistakes, forgive others, and leave those pasts behind. Finally, I could say to myself, “It’s gone away, it’s not me anymore, I am free from it, free from all sins when I set myself towards GOD, I can have a new beginning now.”

Now, as I reflect on my past, I realize that every experience was truly worthwhile for my wisdom. It led me to you and your teachings, and it also guided me to my purpose for this lifetime. And through your inspiring story, I truly believe in God's plan for me. Thank you so much, my soul , for guiding me through my darkest night.

Healing:

During the time at your paradise land, I could feel that every cell of my body was rejuvenating, my body was detoxing inside out, and I had to go to the toilet a lot haha. On the 3rd day, allergic rashes appeared all over my right hand, it kept getting worse until the 9th day, but magically, on the day we left, my skin just healed at light speed, and there were no scars or any signs of allergies in my skin, which is unbelievable.

4 OF MANY MAGNIFICENT MOMENTS AT THE RETREAT

When you were standing upstairs looking at us eating, you said “We are all respected here, we can live slowly & be mindful here, and you tell us to respect the differences and let others have their own freedom”. It may sound normal to others, but it means a lot to me, I learned a lot from the way you treat others in life & work.

When you read your next book to us, with every word coming out, I could see the light spread everywhere in the room & and my whole body was vibrating out of love. It was the most beautiful moment that words can not even express.

I could hear the sound of the universe so clearly and frequently for the first time in your paradise land, especially when I was alone in the toilet, that sound was so beautiful and healing. Everything is your home is pure, I am a blessed child to experience and see all of these miracles. It is like calling sound to remind me of my life purpose: keep on exploring the truth of the universe & glorify the presence of God, not forgetting who I really am.

I used to experience sleep paralysis often, one night at your home, I also experienced it and I saw you appearing, sending light and saving me out of the dark entities. That time I could feel you always protect us, and guide us no matter where we are, as long as I trust in GOD, there is nothing I should be afraid of.

A lot of things to say, but I will make it an end here. The journey is just starting. This universe is so beautiful & there are many things to discover, I am so lucky to have you & your teachings in every breath I take, and every step I go from now on.

Thank you Universe, Thanks the truth, Thank you God. ✨

Thank you my Tammie for all of your wisdom, and for being with me all the time on this journey.💗✨ You bring out the best in me 😊

Wish all the best to this universe. May the truth be spread all over the world. And wish that heaven will come down to earth. 🌠🪷✨

P/s: The memento photo we took after the meditation, we are like kids reborn in your light and love.

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P/s 2: These baby trees, grow up so fast, listening to your dharma talks every day. They are super cute. If they grow so big, may I borrow your land to plant them?? 🤭 You might have organic avocado 🥑 to eat hoho 😁

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P/s 3: Love You-niverse & miss u 🤍. I hope to see you again soon when I am mature & strong enough 💪 👵🏼.

Wish all the best to you, my love.🫡

The child of the universe, Amy.

Tammie: This is one of the best 2 students in the class. When she first speak in the retreat, we saw that she came from a higher dimension and it is a joy to see how she perceived life/Truth and grow at the exact light speed that she came from. On the last day, I healed the trauma that came up in her energy and it is unbelievable that now she told me all the rashes disappeared that very morning. Love God and The Truth.