I have never been afraid of being in love

I have never been afraid of being in love, for I have that all around me waiting to spoil me like their princess, but your passion redefines everything I knew about love, and I am glad that I did not settle for mediocre/ mundane love. I promised God that I would save my pure love/energy for the right one and not just play around anymore. It was fun, fun as always, but besides sex, I had no respect or feelings at a soul level for the person. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings again. While he spoils me very well, I could not even kiss him because I can not lie to myself. I had sex day and night when we met because, besides that, I don't have a common interest to talk to the person. I wanted to talk about universes and energy and my passion for creating a better world around me, but they only know how to talk about mundane things that are so partial and of this world and them. I can't spend the rest of my day/life with those who aren't a match for me, and I told him in advance that he shouldn't attach to me because he would suffer. Because I already saw God reveal to me how the love of my life would feel and look (though at that time, I did not see a clear face yet). I said “them” because there are two separate people (after I realized the Truth. )

I would rather choose faith because if I don’t show God that I am faithful to the One God chose/created for me, I don’t feel right about it. However, God is a good and faithful God. All my life, God has not pushed me hard at all, just perfectly enough, because I am a fast learner in wisdom/ truth. Now when I am at my happiest state, the one I have been told about (by eyes to see people) shows up. When I rewind all about the person and the way the person communicates to me, the information matches. I am still surprised. Love God and Love diu and love diu all.

Sorry if my honestly hurt you but itself will heal your future. Love God.